Just a Nice Guy

This is the entry to explain a few things about me, I am not a femme nazi. I have just been hearing & dealing with some very bad men. The men that I have been writing about so far, are most definitely the lowest scumbags. I do not think that all men are bad, & evil creatures. I know men that are wonderful, & caring, they have to struggle because of all the jerks out there that have made trying to meet someone new or dating almost nightmarish.

Now that we have that part cleared up, let me tell you about a nice man that I know & am glad to call a friend. I will refer to him as Air, because he is a breath of fresh air to me. Air is a very nice caring man that is respectful to my friends & me. He has a wonderful sense of humor, & a shinning personality. Talking to him makes me feel better about life, & gives me new hope for all men. I truly hope that he finds everything that he wants out of life, & I hope that I can be of some help to him to achieve his goals. However, he does need to learn that he is a wonderful person & has so much to give whoever he ends up with. I wish that he could see what I see in him.

Thank you Air, you have shown me that there are still nice men out there, which are not gay, married, or unavailable in some other way. You are such a great friend to have in my life; I am truly blessed.

Little Bit of Everything

Just Chillin'
Well, the weekend was for the most part relaxing. I spent Saturday morning meditating/yoga; I forgot how great it felt to sit in positions that feel like they are going to kill you. I must say though, next day you don't feel like you have been run over by a truck. Saturday afternoon I did some sketches, the first is of Morgan or at least how I see her, & the second is some chic that plagues my dreams lately, read into that what you want.

Jeckl & Hyde
As far as Jeckl & Hyde is concerned; we didn't learn much this weekend. The roommate has taken jerk to a new level, that's okay though we can only hope that his hair falls out & his teeth turn yellow. Had another opportunity to talk to Groovy Chic she has discovered more missing items from her home. I really want to see Jeckl & Hyde go to jail soon, he is still not returned the stolen car, nor has it been found. I can only hope that the police are better at tracking lost children then they are about finding a car. Okay so maybe that's not fair to the police, they do have a lot to deal with, but come on.

That Man
This is where I totally loose it on the lying, cheating, no good for anything men. I made the mistake of talking to That Man again the other day. Now when did I become his friend after the break up? Maybe he just thinks that I am his shrink, because he was telling me about everything from his friends messed up BS to his family matters. I don't know & I don't get it but that's okay I guess.

White Boy & Doll
On to the messed up friends, here goes. First, we have the roommate & his wife, we shall call the roommate White Boy & his wife Doll. Cute huh? Well I really don't want to be sued over something so stupid. Returning to the story, White Boy had been cheating on his pregnant wife Doll, & using That Man as an alibi when he is with his girlfriend. That Man, expressed his irritation about having to cover for White Boy to me, I told him to stop covering. But really, he will protect his friend & if this came out now it would make That Man's living situation that much more less desirable. My only hope is that someone has the nerve to tell Doll or provide a link to this page, she will know who she is. Then at least she will know the whole story.

Boatboy & Firegirl
Oh yes, there is yet another dog running around that I feel the need to air the situation. This other one & his wife will be known as Boatman & Lane (don't ask where the names come from). Boatman has cheated before, in fact they almost got divorced earlier this year in part because of that. Moving along Lane already knows about this newest indiscretion, & from what I hear the plans to divorce are in full swing. I think this might be for the best at this point, & I feel awful for the two beautiful boys that they have together. Well, the situation would not be so bad if it was just contained to destroying Boatman & Lane's family but it's not. The Woman that Boatman is sleeping with, Firegirl, has a husband & three wonderful children of her own. The husband, Fireman, has told her to get out of the house they share. She is still living there as far as I know, so I think that the two of them have talked, & lies were told. Firegirl has Fireman snowed thinking that this relationship with Boatboy is over, or at least that is what I am lead to believe by That Man. Again, my only hope is that Fireman is some how given a link to this page, so that he knows what's really going on.


I understand that these are not my problems. I do not like to see anyone cheat on his or her significant other, it is wrong. If you have to hide it then don't do it, or change your situation.


Have a nice day,
Princess

On The Run

Well, geez today's events were well. Where really to start? The man that we thought was just a little sketchy, Jekyl & Hyde, has taken messed up to a new level. You won't believe the extent of the lies, deceit, & betrayal, (sounds like a bad movie line huh?) anyway, it is just amazing & I think, that should tell you just how bad this man really is. Tracking all these people that he was associated with, was interesting to say the least. To hear yourself ask someone you don't even know, about a person that has made it a point to avoid your ass, is just funny as hell. New alliances have been formed in the process though, we still have yet to actually confirm where Jekyl or Hyde, (depending on the frame of mind he has) is now. In addition, other people we thought were working with us have turned out to be part of a problem & not the overall solution that we are going for.

Let's start with the calls, I think that we have called about twenty people & counting so far. Had the opportunity to talk to the roommate, he was somewhat helpful, until he turned around & got down right bitchy, but not to us, he waited until we were off the telephone to be an ass. We also had the opportunity to talk to the mother of his two children; I certainly didn't see that turning out to be a good thing at first. Actually she was quite helpful & has had to deal with his sorry ass for far longer than we have. She also let us in on some interesting information that proved to be somewhat helpful. If you can't tell I like her, she was completely willing to talk & was very nice. I was so worried that I would hear the telephone slam down after I stated what I was calling about. As Morgan put it "she's a groovy chic" & we like her.

Onto the rest of the adventure! Yes, we went to the house that we knew he used to inhabit. I use that term simply, because that would be the term I use for animals of the lower species, & really, that is where I think that Jekyl & Hyde fit. We did not find him there, but he had been there, sometime after he stole the car of that groovy chic. Isn't that nice folks not only is he hiding out from us, he now has to worry about the police. The whole situation is starting to get a poetic ring to it, or at least I think so.

We will get him, or at very least hope to watch his little head fade away in the back of a police cruiser. Yes, there is more to this story that Morgan or I may choose to share, but for the evening I shall call it good.


Yours truly,
Mackie P.I.

P.S. Groovy chic, if you hate the title I'm sure that there is a better one for you, but my brain is fried at the moment. Any ideas?

Resentful Chic

You know when you thought that you had gotten over hurt feelings, & then something triggers those feelings & you still have all the rage that came with them the first time? I guess that's what I have experienced. Morgan & I decided to do some over due grocery shopping last night & happened to do it in my old neighborhood.

Now grated the reason for my last move was mainly me, but I can't help but feel that "that man" had a hand in it. As we drove past I couldn't help but hope that he has a really bad day or two or three or...... you get my point. I can't help but hope that his life since the break up has been less than stellar. And hope that his Dad has decided to stop paying for "that man's" responsibilities, while he parties his paychecks away.

I hope that someday "that man" dates somebody just like him, then maybe he will understand why I won't talk to him, or want nothing to do with him at all. In fact that entire group people I have made a point to not associate with simply because they are all peas in a pod. That type of person I don't need or want in my life, because it does not encourage growth or responsibility for ones own actions.

Now being the adult that I think I am you would think that I would just get over it. Well maybe every once in awhile acting like a child & having those thoughts is healthy or at least I hope so. I will get over it in a couple days I'm sure, but right now I am HOPPING MAD! I would also like to tell him where he could put that apology that he thinks that I owe him, he can shove it up his @#%!

In fury,
The Hostile "Honey"

P.S. I always hated being called that, just call me Princess.
P.S.S. Hey I even made it through there without using any four-letter words, shit! OOPS! Come on it was a joke, laugh damn it!!

Morning Craze

One of these days I will throw the computer out the window just having to deal with AOL. It can seriously make a person insane. The other half my frustration this morning is not only having to deal with AOL but also working with it on an IBM. I swear they know that I don't like them, & if I get one more error message I shall have to scream. I'm sure that would make the neighbors happy!!!

Here is the part where I praise the dear sweet, wonderful, Mac on my desk, now only if AOL could write their program to "play nice" with it. If only I could find a decent FTP program for the Mac, I would never work on the IBM again, well okay maybe for letter writing & solitaire. Besides having to switch between the two to get these pages up & running is getting tiring, got to love all the photo, & sound editors that I have on the Mac. I guess that I am just missing all the cool toys that I have for my Mac, as we do not have them for the IBM.

On with the ranting!! Why do people, ex boyfriend's in particular, feel the need to call me up in the middle of the night & "chat". Granted I wasn't sleeping, but not really the point. What is it about me that welcomes this idiotic behavior? I really would like to know. I should just stop answering the phone all together. Maybe then he will stop calling.

Well I think that about covers it for this morning, I am sure that I will change this posting certainly not very thought provoking. Have a nice day! It's time for me to take a nap.

From the dwarfs: Grumpy & Sleepy

Relationships

What do I really want in a relationship? This was a question that was presented to me by a close friend the other day; this conversation has been repeating itself many times over the last five years. I wasn't sure exactly how to answer that; it is very frustrating to try to explain what you want in a possible long-term relationship. I thought that it would be easier trying to approach what I don't want, but no matter what direction that I looked at it, it was still difficult to figure out. Well, the following is what I guess is the starting point.

I just want somebody that cares about what I want, I think & feel. It sounds a lot like what you look for in a friend, but that is where it starts. I would like to find someone who I can eat in front of (long story) that will hang out on the couch when I just feel like staying home & watching a movie or want to veg. Someone who has integrity, a person that will keep his word. A person that I can talk to, about religion, politics, the world, dreams, the past & the future. A man with realistic goals that doesn't believe the "house & white picket fence" is real & obtainable, that would be like me believing that "the knight in shining armor" exists (I think NOT!). I guess someone that I can just be myself, crazy, disorganized, stressed out, flustered mess, around; & he actually likes it.

I don't need to be fixed; I don't want to be made to feel that I must change in order to make it work. I shouldn't have to change anything about myself, but if I do change I want it to be for me, not because someone thinks that I am a faulty person. I find myself far to often changing to please others, I know I do it, but most of the time it is easier to fit the needs of others than to just be myself. I guess that comes from the fear of not wanting to be alone forever.

Now with that all out of my system, do not lecture me about how much time I have to find that person. I am still not adjusting well to the "ten year plan" that went to hell in a hand basket after high school. This is my issue & I will work it out slowly but eventually I will over come my disappointment of the failed plan. Until then I will try not to live vicariously through other people in my life, because I know that this hinders any chance of just dealing with it.

Sincerely,
The Princess waiting for her frog. LOL

Friends

It's funny how people come in and out of your life the so-called "friends"; maybe it is just my generation that uses that term so very loosely. Friends are so hard to come by, so holding on to the ones that you have is so important.

A friend to me is a person:

*That you should stick up for, even though you might not want to

*That values your opinion, though may not agree

*That makes you feel important because of your uniqueness

*That betters you by challenging the way that you think & feel

*That can make you smile when you want to scream

*That will bring you one pound of M&M's at 3am when you are upset

*That drags you out of the house even if you don't want to go

*That you couldn't picture your life without



In return, you provide them with the same things they provide you with,
& that is what makes a friendship strong.


So I will take the opportunity to thank all those that I hold close & consider to be true friends. Thank you, you have shared many experiences with me that have left impressions & memories that I will hold dear always.


Love & hugs,
Kenzy


I had Pen chase down some quotes for me, I was only going to add one but you know how that goes.
Thanks Pen!

We cannot always assure the future of our friends;
we have a better chance of assuring our future if we remember who our friends are.
Henry Kissinger


Forsake not an old friend;
for the new is not comparable to him: a new friend is as new wine;
when it is old, thou shalt drink it with pleasure.
Apocrypha