It's still morning...right?

Did fall actually start yet? I have no idea but I know that my allergies are giving me hell, just when I get my new contacts I can't wear them for more than a few hours before I have to peel them out. That is my luck. Apparently not only am I oblivious to most other people but also the environment, some of the trees are already changing, or at least that's what I have been told.

This last weekend was supposed to be my time to scan and upload pictures to post here and to family... didn't happen. I was just not feeling up to that, I think I spent most of the time huddled under a blanket on the couch watching movies, didn't really help. I still feel icky but better, should have just done the scanning and uploading. Anyway that's the plan for the afternoon, we'll see how that goes.

I have another job interview today, actually a second interview... seems silly to me that they would require a second interview for a job of this nature. ::shakes head:: Delusions of grandeur? Probably. ::chuckles:: I know that it's not a good thing to have thoughts like this over a potential employer, but really some companies and organizations just ask for it.

Not really getting much done this morning, I just don't feel awake yet. I did however wake up enough to send my Play Station and games off to my cousins. Their house was broken into last week, so of course this household, plans to use that as a way to find a new home for things that we don't use and they can. I would say that it's a good deal all the way around.

Have a good one!

Lazy Day

Not much happening around this house today... which is a good thing. We all worked on various house projects all weekend, so my morning and afternoon were spent trying to find new ways to die playing Halo (note: hand eye coordination was not my thing today). I did run into town to pick up my new contacts.... and ended up running a few errands that weren't on my "to do list".

Oh yes, and Pen will not be updating her journal for awhile as she is rather busy with unpacking, shopping for new furniture, and various other household setup issues. I would have posted a note to her journal but I'm bring a wee lazy today (I might get to that tomorrow).

That's all I have for this evening, have a good one!

Okay so this is a really short entry...what of it?

Issues of the day

This is one of those days I would have rather curled up with a book than venture out of the house. Job interviews.... I hate them. How do you sell yourself without sounding overconfident... Selling things I'm good at, selling me I'm not. There's always that dreaded question about what your faults are, stupid me, I'm honest.

I think I have now gone through my entire wardrobe, which is no small feat, found something that's comfy, and I think suitable for the occasion. Now all I have to do is put all those clothes away, before Boo decides to lay down on all the clean clothes.

(later)

Okay clothes are away and safe from the kitty. I have about 40 minutes before I have to run out the door, and my mind is now complete mush. I've been awake since 2am, which isn't abnormal for me, but I'm getting sleepy again; I know that's this is a fake sleepy thing because I shouldn't be tired, and have drank enough coffee to keep an elephant wired for weeks.

So other than the nerves this morning has been plagued by computer issues, not my computer of course, after all it is a MAC. I got to play computer tech for the parents computer, it's working, though since I know little to nothing about what I did, I fear that I may have opened a huge hole into the security settings. BTW I followed the instructions in that horrible troubleshooting mess, so if I did bad things, at least it’s easily fixable.... I hope. This means that I will be spending quality time with someone on the phone that knows how to walk me through a real fix, instead of the band aide I applied.

Here's the thing, buy a MAC and I can fix anything you throw at me, bring me an IBM and I can point you to people that might help you if they have time, or I can guess. Just an FYI my guessing has led to really bad computer juju, resulting in a total hard drive rebuild. haha

Have a good one!

Burning Words: I would have walked away from the life I know for you, you just had to ask.

The Ink

Sad that I sign like that would even need to be posted, isn't it?

Did I get my tat yet? Well no, here's the story.

Remember that I already have my design, I'm just waiting on my dad to find his perfect and very elusive design, to complete the deal made last year. While at Sturgis we dropped by almost every tattoo booth, these stops usually didn't take too long. Most of the tats they do during the rally aren't custom, they're from catalogs of other peoples designs.

We did spend time at Shape Quest (couldn't find the damn URL) and Saints & Sinners booth. As it turns out Saints & Sinners brought along one of their resident artists (didn't catch his name) that sat down and tried to design something on the fly. It was neat but unfortunately was not what my dad wanted, so no ink.

I think that my dad has now come to the conclusion that he will have to design his own like I did.

Have a good one!

Sturgis 2004 pics

I'm entirely exhausted but here are some pictures I took at the rally on Friday afternoon. These images have been cropped but that's about it as far as editing. I will do a "real" journal entry soon, just not today!

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Have a good one!
Kenzy

How very odd!

I just got back from the second refit of my contacts, with them my vision is about 20/25, apparently within an acceptable range so I'm happy. I was getting worried that they would want to test another pair on me and make me come back a forth time.

I ran over to walmart spent about forty five minutes pissing around, while I waited for the library to open so that I could drop books off. After dropping off books, I was on my way home, while stopped at an intersection waiting for traffic (sun roof open, music loud), a construction worker knocked on the passenger side window. I look over roll the window down, (turn music down to "normal" volume) he asks me what group it is, I tell him (Blue October). Then, and this is the part that had me chuckling all the way home, he asked for my phone number! And I might have actually given it to him if I could remember what the hell it is.

Side thoughts:
1. Who knew you could use music as a way to try to get a phone number?
2. I really should try to learn this number, with all the moves in the past few years who can keep track!
3. Dude hit on me when I had no make up on... and he was cute. Probably too young but cute.
4. Is it possible that I'm more ready to start dating than I thought?

As amusing as all this is, not to mention a lovely ego boost, I plan to work on my car today, it needs help, so I need to get my ass out there.

Good morning (or afternoon depending on your time zone)!

self made hell

I decided the other day that I was going to start leaving separate entries just on this blog, leaving them completely off my EJ, I'll still be posting EJ content here. It has nothing to do with liking this site better then EJ, it's just that well... I have censored most of the content on EJ because that's the one that my family reads. I love my family but it's hard to talk about some things and know that they will read them. Whereas here, the likelihood that any of my family will run across it is slim at best.

Now what's really on my mind.... depression.

Not exactly the bouts that we all go through, in particular my mother has majors swings into depression. Lately it's been very bad, and I fear being pulled down into that self destructive state myself. She compares her life to other peoples and seems to only see what she wants, not the struggles that those individuals have stacked on top of them. I know all this is normal for depression, but she hits really bad lows where she straight out says she wishes she were dead. Now how fucked up is that to say to your daughter! After hearing that it makes me feel like shit, I'm her child and she hates her entire life. I know she doesn't hate me but it does plant that seed of thinking.

I'm completely at a lose as to what I can do to help her, I would just let her pull herself out of her self made hell, but that could be awhile. In the meantime my migraines are getting worse because of the household tension over it, since I won't take meds for them I wish to die because of the pain.

I do so love those pipes

Something woke me up last night and I have yet to get back to sleep. I thought that I could get up, roam a few sites, check my email, play a game for awhile, and then get back to sleep. WRONG! So I did the natural thing just started following links, most sites were interesting but I ran across this blog tonight (this morning?) and thought that this entry (covers US election) was notable... and that's all that I'm saying there.

We put up a shed over the weekend to house tools and other misc. yard things. This is the shed, I know the link shows another use for the shed, and honestly I just thought it was more interesting then snapping photos of the one in the yard. If you ever buy one of these, note now that the instruction book is complete shit, think of it like big leggos and you will be fine. And if you ever plan on needing the extension kit buy it at the same time because it is the middle section.

Sturgis Rally has kicked off though not officially just yet, bet traffics a bitch around Rapid City and surrounding communities, and will be for the next few weeks. I know that Sturgis only technically lasts a week but try telling that to massive amounts of bike enthusiasts from around the country and a some from over seas; they started showing up a few weeks ago. Actually don't, their great for the local economies. Besides that, I dig it. Household plans for rally week have not solidified just yet, but fear not we are going. And this year I get to come home instead of staying out there YAY. Seriously I love the rumble but when you are trying to sleep... not cool, trust me even when you do get to sleep then the noise stops (around 4-5am) and the quiet wakes you up.

Which brings us to the tattoo deal that I made. Last year my dad started seriously looking around for a bear design to get inked. Pen didn't think he was serious I told Pen when he picks one out I'll get a new one inked. I have mine picked out, but we're still waiting for him to find his. Hopefully during rally week we can fix that, though I doubt that anything will get inked until after the rally. I don't trust mobile tattoo shops to be clean enough.

Oh yes, if anyone is or will be around the rally let me know and I'll try to swing by or meet you if I get a chance. I already got mail/PM's from people and groups from the Omaha and Lincoln areas that I hope to see. Drive safe kids, nobody wants a mess. Now I think that I'll try that sleep thing again.

Have a good one!

I'm back again

1,200 miles later, and I'm back home. It was a good visit, I didn't get half of what I planned to do done, but that is the nature of all trips.

I spent time annoying my sister's family with my camera flash. Cameras are so wonderful. My father on the other hand did the same thing with other family members at the reunion. He was also showing them pictures from previous family reunions along with some other photos that I had sent him off with. Unfortunately I didn't look through the photos first I just assumed that only the photos that he asked for were there, oops, so they got to see of my last year in high school and some from when I was in Omaha.

Anyway the scanning, Photoshop, and uploading slate are extremely full and should keep me busy for awhile, because I am the photo bitch. I will supply some pics for my journal when I decide which ones are allowable and after I have finished all the editing.

Since getting home last night I'm running slow, which I suppose is normal, I will deal with a real update, email, and PM's in the next few days. I know that this entry is lacking, I will be happy with it.... for now.

Have a good one.