Down side of the wheel
The Thing
Bah! When did life get so complicated? Well, maybe it’s not and I just lack the proper perspective at the moment. Aaron and I separated not going into the details but it would seem that one person doing the wrong thing has a habit of sparking another person doing the wrong thing; vicious circle and nobody comes out smelling like a rose.
Other Adjustments
Back to: Nebraska, me, growing, school (?), different directions, odd sleeping patterns, my bullshit… Being back is weird and comforting all at the same time, a lot of things have changed and yet so many things are the same. There are days when I wake up and it seems just like I never left, at least until I have a cup of coffee then reality sets in. Complicated or simple…I have not decided just yet.
My sleep schedule is what it what is, odd for most people but it has always been nice to be awake when the world around is sleeping, for me at least. It’s great to be able to stare into the darkness and feel no fear, no judgments, just open space. And since I’m no longer in a city I can’t smell the crap in the air (exhaust, fast food, etc.) for whatever reason it always gives me a very claustrophobic feeling besides all that I can see the stars and they are amazing!
The Critters
Sebastian (sheltie – dog) has taken very nicely to living out in the sticks, he doesn’t have to be bothered with a leash. Though he doesn’t get to play with the neighbors dogs because they are female and I don’t think that they are fixed. As much as I love puppies I don’t want to deal with that right now.
Boo (cat) and Bastian are learning to exist in the same house which is interesting. Bastian tries to herd Boo who is un-herdable he then comes to me to communicate that Boo won’t do what he ought to. Boo chases Bastian like he on the hunt, Bastian thinks this is a great game, Boo gets pissed because the dog is enjoying what is supposed to be a terrifying flight for life.
The Path
I think that I will give up making five year or even one year plans, it doesn’t work for me I’m not flexible enough with them and the lengths I take to get back on them generally destroys any progress.
Now, I don’t want a bunch of you sending me condolences on the status of my marriage. I’m not saying don’t mention it, I would just rather focus on more positive things so I don’t feel the desire to burn down the house, figuratively of course.
I’m looking to go back to school and that’s a good thing. I have so many people that love and support me even when they don’t agree with the roads I choose to travel, and for right now that’s enough. Thanks all!
Have a good one!
P.S. Sorry about the last post I was lit and on edge, and since I never edit or delete it shall stay as a reminder
Bah! When did life get so complicated? Well, maybe it’s not and I just lack the proper perspective at the moment. Aaron and I separated not going into the details but it would seem that one person doing the wrong thing has a habit of sparking another person doing the wrong thing; vicious circle and nobody comes out smelling like a rose.
Other Adjustments
Back to: Nebraska, me, growing, school (?), different directions, odd sleeping patterns, my bullshit… Being back is weird and comforting all at the same time, a lot of things have changed and yet so many things are the same. There are days when I wake up and it seems just like I never left, at least until I have a cup of coffee then reality sets in. Complicated or simple…I have not decided just yet.
My sleep schedule is what it what is, odd for most people but it has always been nice to be awake when the world around is sleeping, for me at least. It’s great to be able to stare into the darkness and feel no fear, no judgments, just open space. And since I’m no longer in a city I can’t smell the crap in the air (exhaust, fast food, etc.) for whatever reason it always gives me a very claustrophobic feeling besides all that I can see the stars and they are amazing!
The Critters
Sebastian (sheltie – dog) has taken very nicely to living out in the sticks, he doesn’t have to be bothered with a leash. Though he doesn’t get to play with the neighbors dogs because they are female and I don’t think that they are fixed. As much as I love puppies I don’t want to deal with that right now.
Boo (cat) and Bastian are learning to exist in the same house which is interesting. Bastian tries to herd Boo who is un-herdable he then comes to me to communicate that Boo won’t do what he ought to. Boo chases Bastian like he on the hunt, Bastian thinks this is a great game, Boo gets pissed because the dog is enjoying what is supposed to be a terrifying flight for life.
The Path
I think that I will give up making five year or even one year plans, it doesn’t work for me I’m not flexible enough with them and the lengths I take to get back on them generally destroys any progress.
Now, I don’t want a bunch of you sending me condolences on the status of my marriage. I’m not saying don’t mention it, I would just rather focus on more positive things so I don’t feel the desire to burn down the house, figuratively of course.
I’m looking to go back to school and that’s a good thing. I have so many people that love and support me even when they don’t agree with the roads I choose to travel, and for right now that’s enough. Thanks all!
Have a good one!
P.S. Sorry about the last post I was lit and on edge, and since I never edit or delete it shall stay as a reminder
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